When you see me,
do you see her, too?
Do you see her eyes falter,
or her lips, pursed,
or her cheeks, fallen,
or her facial hair, half an inch too visible?
Do you see her slumped shoulders,
or her obvious lack of self-confidence,
or her shameless blackheads,
or her constant self-doubts?
Do you see that fear,
that solidifies with years,
or that tear,
that comes with public jeers
for times and times again?
Do you see the judgment she passed on herself,
or the noose around her neck,
or that she is suffocated
with things far too inexplicable?
She is all I see on the mirror
when all I am supposed to see is me,
and she is all I see from a distance
when I let myself go
She is eating away at me,
and I am losing myself with every bite